delusion

grasping the air,

waiting in vain.

declaring bankrupt

on my heart inside.

consumption arises

to those who tried

to live in pain

against themselves

or another times. 

the stars above

have nothing to say

instead of asking

lets try to forget

how we got here, 

how we ended dead.

i came here not for regrets,

i wondered why you

were never there

when i screamed 

as loud as i could

just for some respect.

partying made me

take memories away.

drugs took myself

to my own paradise

where my thoughts and strives

were no longer in control

of my just learnt wisdom.

into the land of forever

i drove my crazyness

so fast i just could

hit and run.

disregarded and betrayed,

inusually discouraged,

hurt on pourpose,

left alone to die alive.

now i am on possesion

of you tricks and lies.

let make them mine,

i´ll use them wisely.

now i see the result

of my delusions

into my very sad of you,

too late to start anew.